September Stretching

I’m at this place right now, where I feel like I’m stretching out. I don’t quite know exactly what I want or how it’s going to turn out. I just know that I can’t stay here. I can’t reside here, because it’s important to keep moving. Movement is important, and my role as a pioneer is to continue, to push ahead when it’s tough. My weaknesses have been popping up lately, and it’s making me want to crawl back into cave. This has been my normal unfortunately for many years. Disappearing when things get overwhelming. But this time, I promised myself I would keep going even if it hurts. I would get to the point that I would understand and see the people I needed to see. I would be the resource that people need. Each one of us is needed in this world, we all have value, we are all important, we all contribute in some way shape or form.
     Yesterday we spent some time at the beach, way too long to be honest and I’m kind of paying for it today because the kids are tired and grumpy. I feel like this whole year I’ve been in a juggling act of trying to figure out, how to make work, how to market, how to be a mom and be present with my children, and also invest in my marriage. My toddler expressed to me today that he would like to do some schooling again soon, and I’m going how will I fit that in? How will I still have friends? Stretch, breathe, it’s complicated, but I will get there ​